Who Comes To Your Mind First? Him Or Her...
haiz... so disappointed today... asking abt something... the first reply they told me is "HIM"... y do everyone think of him... even though he is important... but he is not the first priority... SHE is the one who is supposed to be the first one we think of... how can u all forget her... SHE is the most important person, not him.... It's not that he is not good or we dun want him, he can be the next important person but is onli after HER... do you know how much she has helped us... how much she care abt us... I would not mind if u ask HIM, but no one tell me abt HER.... that's has seriously make me feel extreme disappointed and sad...

todae, first time see my bio cher after he is sick for 2 wks. I can see that he can't really speak properly and heard from my friends that he has difficulty speaking well. When i first saw him, i felt a bit pity for him, but after then, I felt so respect of him. I mean if i were him and that i can't speak well, i would definitely hide at home and dun go to work... This had definitely made me feel that he is so brave and very optimistic. I felt that he is a guy who can always look at the bright side, he is a guy who maybe do not care abt what others think of him. That really make him look so brave and let me wanna respect him even more. I must salute to him. Never mind how he look, his character has made him look even better... hahaz...(Dun think i say him handsome, is that he just have character, ok?)

Anyway, my compo kanna selected for speech competition, dunno whether wanna join not... i am very happy that my chi cher likes the way i present and speak with confidence. But i am just afraid that i will let her down, cuz i hab so much things at hand and i think i dun hab that much time to memorise the speech. But anyway, there will be a try out on monday... see i lucky not, whether can make it into the competition.

Haiz.. sat watching movie... still haben decide wat movie to see... so confusing now...
Tomoro... the first LC meeting... so scared man... dunno wat will it feel like sitting and talking to the four LCs together with my exco....

But anyway, i am looking forward to my EAST COAST PARK TRIP tomoro... yayayaya... this is gonna be fun... it's so cool... we can go there eat, cycle and play... so fun... I really appreciate tat my CCA cher come up with this activity... If CAN, CAN WE HAB MORE THE NEXT TIME?
Now i having a hard time thinking whether i should cycle myself or cycle with another friend or roller-blade... which one is better ah? hahaz... =)

(When you make a mistake, don't look back at it long. Take the reason of the thing into your mind and then look forward. Mistakes are lessons of wisdom. The past cannot be changed. The future is yet in your power. )

I read this in... 如果我们不恋爱... nice story...
These are some of the sentences i read in "如果我们不恋爱" this book... i found this book in the school library and so borrow it... a book that tells about a triangle love... a weird love ba... think most of us will like this book...

1) "爱情不会忘记任何人，也许，在你最不经意的时刻，它已经降临。"
2) "动心，是前奏。倾心，是序幕。最终，都是演变成赤裸的爱。"
3) "缘分的降临，一如紫色的闪电划过夜空，打中什么就是什么。"
4) "爱是那么危险，一颗心不再属于自己。但是，一生当中至少也应当经历一次吧！"
5) 最孤单的时候　是在热闹的街上，
看着人来人往　却不会有人停留，
最平静的时候　其实最最想你，
记忆到处散落　惟独你的微笑容最灿烂！

This is wat i think of todae: "爱情是要彼此相让，但有时，忍让是有限度的，当这发生时，爱情可能不会永恒！"

CONCLUSION: TREASURE YOUR LOVE THAT IS IN FRONT OF YOU, DUN WAIT TILL WHEN THINGS TURN BAD, THEN DO YOU REGRET!!!

Sianz ahahahah....
Haiz... one week past le... hab my first time banding for E math... can't tell much now. todae onli gt 1/2 hr lesson. but anyway... i sitting together with wei yang.

Dunno whether to say we are "luckly" or juz too "lucky"... Now i finally believe that HISTORY REPEAT ITSELF. i dun wanna be in there... can i be in somewhere else.... i believe a lot of my classmates agree with me... and we're all asking:"OMG! Y? y? y? again????"

lose $1 to RuiLing... sian lor... How come like that? I thought i am going to win... but half an hr or lesser time, i lost to her... wa lao... not fair... so unlucky... i wanna my $1... i am already so confident i am going to win le... how come he can't 配合我一下???? now, my pocket gt BIG HOLE!!!

worse ah! todae hp kanna lock! dunno y lor? i am so scared, i dun wanna change HP!But it's ok to change HP number la. dun wanna so bad luck again.... (dunno how come kanna like same number... too concidental [巧] le ba) I maybe can change to a number like RL and KY like that onli gt one number difference.... so gd... i want TOO!!! (anyone wanna almost the same number as me?) hahaz!!! =)

AIM OF THE WK: STOP LAUGHING @ PPL!!! =)

Changes? Good? OR bad?
today, i heard that we will have to be band to different groups for our EL lesson. dunno where i would be band to, but expecting to be band to a worst class, cuz my eng is not that good.

Banding:
ENG ~ yes
E.MATH ~ yes
A.MATH ~ dun think so
CHEMISTRY ~ so far onli know gt lectures where the pure chemistry students would be crammed at AVA to study....
CHINESE ~ of course i dun hab la.. i study HMT, onli gt one class, how to band...
GEOGRAPHY ~ already banded since the starting of our sec four lifes....
SOCIAL STUDIES ~ dun think so
BIOLOGY ~ this is another subject where i confirmed no banding one. Our class is the onli class studying PURE BIO. how to band???

sianz... dunno if banding helps... first impression is that it won't. Some of my friends said that it would onli make us feel worse. Cuz if we are already in a bad band and we see so many ppl together with us the same (in a bad band class), we would think that since so many ppl not that gd, i might as well dun study and let it get worse. It's so called no motivation to study and work harder. But i think is no harm trying, maybe going at our own pace, we are able to score well too!!! (HOPE SO!)

todae A maths test sure fail le. First i came in to class late, then no addition time for me. can't finish some of the question. Plus i waste time finding my correction tape.... haiz... think i muz pray hard for miracles to happen....

Me, my sis, NANA, RL and huiling were talking abt SUSU... (if u dun understand, it means milk in malay) and of course, as usual... RL and NANA talk abt what they like and interest them most!!! (think u all able to know wat i mean) then hear abt this "梁山泊与茱丽叶" (it's ok if u dunno wat it means... it's better not to know!) Nice try from HuiLing... one of the most creative one i hear.... =)

anyway to HuiLing, i would like to say for the last time: "梁 恨 茱" & "茱 恨 梁".... Hahaz... think u able to know wat i am talking abt ba... =)

Hope that this weekend i would be able to finish all my work... seems a lot.... muz jia you le... =)

Banding....
Ahahahaha....
I heard from our form teacher that there would be banding for eng.
and an hour ago, my eng teacher say that she maybe won't teach us...

Oh my god! I don't wanna hear that.... I did not have a proper teacher last year during my sec three year. Now in sec four, i finally hab one stable and good teacher to teach me. Now at second term, she say she may not teach us. I don't want this situatuion to happen. I mean i was so happy when i know that she was my eng teacher. Now she's gone!

Another issue, we hab been band to four bands for our E-math. I am now in Band 2, with my "gd" godbro, zhenxiang. Haiz... i felt so disappointed and sad that my E-math teacher is not going to teach Band 2 but Band 3 where RL and Ben is. (They are so happy when they knew that the teacher was her! Gd lor...)

Todae, mr koh was not in school. Neither was mr tan. I heard tat mr tan went for reservice. So great that we hab no geography lesson. But so angry at the same time, cuz i thought today they are going to go through with us the geo ws. Then i last night, go chiong it out!!!!

Tomoro is the Day!!! During ther prefect meeting, I would be annouced as the "head prefect"!
Hahaz.... hard to imagine ba... i am the Head Prefect....
I would sure obey the rules and serve my prefectorial board to the best i can. I will lead the prefectorial board to the best of what i can do! I love the Prefectorial Board. I am proud to be a Prefect! I am proud and happy to serve the school!!!! =)

(LOOKING FORWARD TO CCA, MEETING & BIO LESSON!!! [cuz no cher, can slp] haha...)

I AM LOST.... again.... (18/03/07)
i went to his house yestersday.....At 4 plus, i meet Ruiling and gave her my hw to copy...
then i immediately rushed to the post office cuz my parents said that they closed at 5p.m.
I thought i was not late... but who knows, when i reach there, it says "Sunday Closed!!!"
I was at lost. Siao, i dun wanna go his house and put it in the letterbox.... plus i dunno the way...
Then i called RL to see if she wanna come join me... But she said that she has gone home with her niece & nephew.

Then i thought i would call Christina but i know she is doing her hw and couldn't come out...
So no choice, have to go there alone... On my way to there, i was praying hard that i would not get lost.... I do not want to spend money on taxi... (For those who dunno, i am 路痴, a person who would lose her/his way easily! That's y whenever i get lose, i would hire a taxi!)
Finally, i reached the place... But dunno which direction to go!

First i went to the MRT station and asked the uncle how to walk to the block. He showed me the direction and say "walk straight, see a overhead bridge then cross." I started my "adventure". On my way, i kept asking some of the uncles and aunties how to walk to there. Then i stopped to buy sweet talk... (It was darm hot on that day!) I also used this opportunity to ask the lady at the sweet talk shop abt which direction to walk. she said: "Walk straight and there would be a overhead bridge!" I was like ah.... Everyone i asked say "WALK STRAIGHT" and "OVERHEAD BRIDGE". But anyway, i veri obedient. I kept on walking straight.(But never hit the walls!)
Finally i see the overhead brigde. I took the overhead brigde. Now i have at least know where the block are....

But this time round, i seriously lost my way. There was like no one there where i could ask to where the block was. I looked at the carpark sign where it says the block number and the direction to walk to. I walked and walked, thinking i walked correctly... But hahaz... i over"walked", i walked till other blocks... Then i started walked around anyhow, betting on my luck... I walked round and round, then i see the *** (Not the actual block, but is onli one number lesser than the block i wanna find!). If *** is here, then where is the block i am finding... i thought maybe i should look at the carpark to see if gt his car... But "NO"!!!

I was like almost wanna give up... i then came to a provision shop which was under a HDB block. I then asked the uncle where is the block? Then he said: "Neh... it's this block!" I felt like an idiot person... walking round and round, it is actually so near me... but i missed it...

Then i walked to the letterbox... i found the address but haiz... the letterbox is locked... i thought maybe i never push hard enough, so i pushed harder... haiz... really cannot open! I was feeling :"I finally find the place, now letterbox also have problem..." Then i took out my hp and message him. Minutes later, he replied back and told me to put at his house doorstep....

"Ok, that's great!" I said to myself... anyway, i took the lift up. Of course, this time round i did not lose my way... so easy how can possible lose my way... Then i put his things outside the house. B4 i leave, i see his neighbour and asked her whether the family's surname is "@#$%&". she told me she dunno....

I was feeling whether i came to the wrong house. (Sorry I am a BIG SOTONG!) I checked the address again. It was correct. I then left the place.

hahaz.... guess what happen when i went down. I went "hahaz... where am i?" I lost my way, i dunno which way to go... I mean i know how to get in but dunno how to get out.... I thought i would walked straight... Then worse... i dunno exactly where am i? I was like afraid and frightened.... i immediately called Christina... she told me that she had no idea and asked me to ask him... i called him... (Think he must be shocked!) he told me at least where to go out...
finally i found my way again.... Haha... with his help plus my INTELLIGENCE, i am able to get out! Me clever ba....

Yestersday Conclusion: I must bring STREET DIRECTORY with me nxt time i go anywhere... or at least bring someone who know the place well....
Haiz... hope he is not laughing at me losing my way....

Happy.... Sad... Diasppointed...
Todae class bbq was quite a success... we hab lots of fun.... i was happy that most of the classmates came.... and of course our Form Teacher also came... But a few teachers were not here... a bit disappointed.....

But i thought i would feel happy now.... instead i am feeling sad...
The card i make for Mr Leong was "attacked" by water bomb... Some of the colour went off....
I thought i would cry when i see the card... but i did not! I do not wanna my classmates to feel sad and guilty... [It was part of my fault, who tell me to put there.... =( ]

I am feeling so so so so sad now!!! It's a card i made till midnight, a card which i made when my eyes was not feeling well.(As i say in my previous entry, i can't see things that are near me....)
Even though they said the card looked nice even when the colour went off, but i can see that it is actually not as nice as it is before. I took a hard time painting it... I took more than two hours to draw it as i can't see well... Maybe u think it is nothing, but i know how much hardships i went through just to draw it... Imaging yourself unable to see things that is only around the distance of 50cm..... it is hard!!! I can't really describe the feelings... but i can only use one word to say the feeling i have now: "SAD"...

Thanz for cheering me up...(My classmates) But i truely can't smile now... i really hope that i can mend the card... I pray....

[To Mr Leong: Sorry if your card looks ugly, i didn't mean it to turn out this way... =( ]

I am so excited & afraid....
Now time is 2.44am....
It's like abt 14 hrs to the class BBQ...
strange ba... so late le i still haben sleep... hahaz... i just finish A math hw... scare sunday no time to finish all my hw....

anyway... i also just done finish mr Leong's card!
hab a sms chat wih him today.hear that he went to NUH to see doctor... hahaz, so concidentally (dunn how to spell) i at KKH seeing doctor too!
Think he is seriously sick ba, mayb not coming to sch on mon le... oh no? then who is going to teach us bio? I hope not anyone else.... (Praying hard now, i wanna Mr Leong back for my bio lessons....) wish he could get well soon! =)

anyway, i veri dizzy now.i think some of u should know y i dizzy ba.... hab my eye checkup today. sick sia.... my eyes veri pain when doctor dunno pock what thing to my eyes (RL gt see!!!) then put eyedrops.... vision gt blur! Luckily RL is there to help me.... (THANK YOU RUILING!!!) Now, vision gt better, at least i can check and read my hp message now... (For those who dunno, after the eyedrops, the patient is unable to see the near vision.)

Sian ah.... veri afraid for tomoro BBQ.... thinking whether i miss anything?did i not buy something? is anything not inform?questions after questions racing through my mind.

I am getting excited and afraid now.... ahahahahahahahah..... hope nothing turns out bad tomoro.... so sad some teachers cannot make it.... (Mdm Asmahan, Ms Chow, Mr Leong...) Hope the rest of the teachers we invited would be present! (Hoping to see Mr TLH's wife -to-be....)

Now time: 3.04a.m
still can't sleep... think everyone sleep le... no one to chat with me... sianz....
Never mind... i go play games... hahaz.... =)

(LOOKING FORWARD TO BBQ & SUN'S MISSION)

Do I like him?
Do i really like him? Yes or No? It's a confusion.... I am not sure whether i hab this special feelings towards him. But sometimes it seems to be a "YES" and sometimes it seems to be a "NO"....
I maybe like him becuz:
He is someone who i think is the type i would like to have as my BF. He is mature, with a sense of humor, someone who u can really depend on, someone who seems to have a gd temper...
I can't deny i like his character a lot! I mean it's like so perfect... he's not so handsome but his way of carrying himself looks cool... his knowledge and the things he knows makes me admire him... I can't deny i wanna know him more... he looks so secretive and i am so curious of who he is.
My friends say i and him veri compatible. We do hab things that we are alike in, but just minor things.
I dun like him becuz:
Usually ppl say that if u like someone, u will think of him always and every night before u slp, but i dun think of him b4 i slp, i dun think of him unless with my friends or in school....
I think is mayb becuz my friends like to put me and him together, so it slowly make me feel i like him...
Dunno ba... maybe i do like him, but i keep on denying... maybe i dun like him, it's just admiration...
Anyway... i think i should try to stay away from him.... even i like him, i can't be together with him, it's impossible.
Conclusion: Dunno... highly a NO ba... =)

真心话....
真心话 - 何润东

早晨醒来身上沾了颜料
而画笔还握得很紧很牢
阳光中你仍静静悄悄
在画板上看着我微笑
几乎每天梦到散着步和你聊
有一种幸福和美好
我感觉得到却捕捉不到
有时候让情绪很糟
感动明明塞满胸口却说不明白
我爱得多么澎湃
只愿你能看得出来
喜欢你想爱你想说真心话
我只有深情但请你收下
我只有痴狂却不懂得方法
把我心里想的怀里有的清楚让你看吧
喜欢你想爱你想说真心话
路也许还长但爱已出发
我也许太傻却一点也不假
会永远体贴永远守约你肯让我爱你吗
想看着你闹陪着你笑让我爱你吧

Found these sentences in the newspaper, somehow these sentences seems to have the same feel as the song above:
两个人的心无法凑在一起，身体再近也恍如天涯海角。

距离未必是空间或时间上的相隔；在触手可及的范围内，努力往前走却无法走进对方心里，究竟多近才够近，多远才算远？

如此靠近却无法亲近最伤人，与其在伤口上撒盐，不如对自己仁慈点，主动走远。

Haiz... after i read these sentences, i seems to "感同身受”. Someone i like is just right beside me but he does not know that. This kind of love is usually the most painful one! =(

Anyway, wat i say above is just my feelings, it does not happen in the reality. So do not think too much ok? (Especially ROLLING) [see, RL! I put your name in bold? Big enough?] =)

Feel so guilty.....
Time: 6 Plus
Feel so guilty man.... (RL should know wat i mean...)
when i read a message that wasn't mean to be laughed.... I laughed till like crazy. I think i am so wrong lor... I am sorry abt my action now... i am so bad lor. I should not be laughing...
Sorry to him... he is so sick le, i still laugh... sorry... I think KY say it correctly lor... how i can be so evil to laugh when someone is sick at bed....anyway, i am feeling so bad now.... I hope i was sensitive at that point of time.....
Anyway, i hope he could take care of himself.... Hope he can recover ASAP (as soon as possible)... if can, hope we can go visit him... that would be gd... =)

Time: 8 p.m.
Just came back. Raining once i stepped out of my house. Now stomachache. Hahaz.... think is retribution ba. I laugh at him. Now i feeling so sick....
Regret for what i did. But as wat RL and my sis say:" I have already do what i am not suppose to do le! Regret also no use! Wat done is done!"
True enough, regret really no use le!!! Can't reverse back the time! All i can do now is to be more sensitive next time and not repeat the same mistake!

Make it a rule of life never to regret and never to look back. Regret is an appalling waste of energy; you can't build on it; it's only for wallowing in. (By Katherine Mansfield)

Haha... so 邪门....
Now is 10:44 p.m.... 13th of march!
Just call mr Leong @ 10:11....
Now at around 10:33, gt a call from zhi cong, then gt a call from ben... they said: "No Bio Tomoro! Mr Leong sick!!"

The first thing that came to my mind: "Siao, it's abt half an hour after he hung the call, he spread to our class that he is sick!"
Dun believe it at first. I mean listening to his voice, he seems that he is not sick! He is not coughing, not sneezing.... sick????? Maybe fever ba!!!!
Anyway, it's gd that he's not having lesson with our class! That's mean tomoro onli left with A maths..... Yes.... hUrRay! Feel like opening champange(Dunno how to spell!!!) NOW!!

Tomoro we are going to get our shirt!!! Not just any original shirt, BUT IS OUR CLASS T-SHIRT!!! 4/9 CLASS T-SHIRT!!! so cool! =)

Hope to see everyone wear it on BBQ that day... That would be so cool and nice!!!! =)

Hahaz.... still laughing now... and smiling.... cuz no BIO lesson... and still wondering if he is really sick and so 邪门.... =)

Coward Or... Too Good....
Sianz... today first day of holidays still gonna go school.... gt eng, chinese and chemistry.... in the end, gt 1/2 hr eng, 1hr of chinese, and one hr of chemistry which i keep on copying what teacher write... haiz... dun understand wat she say... =)
dunno y today so fan? Mayb becuz of the class T-shirt, BBQ and the trip to the beer factory ba?
Sianz lor... never knew that it will be so confusing to do all this things especially the class T-Shirt! Haiz... hope everything turns out fine.... at least have some sense of achievement at the end...
Anyway, hear some things abt HIM from my juniors... I used to so called like admire him... but nw i think i change my mind. He is either too good or can't be bothered or he is a coward! I mean he is so different from the impression i used to have in mind! Feel like he veri FEI!!!!
Haiz... bad impression abt him.....
anyway, gt mt,eng and math... sian... sian... sian =)

How Am I Feeling???
Just came back from school....

Gt back my result today... i score quite badly for my results... I gt one C, one A and the rest Bs.
Eng = C5
Combined Humanities = A1
Higher Chinese, Biology = B3
A math, E math, chemistry = B4
Even though this result might be the top ten in the class but i think i can still do better. I must work extra hard to score better, specially for my chemistry and maths and biology. I hear that the results for our bio was bad! Hope that we can all JIA YOU and become the first class in our sch to pass our BIO in the "O" Level and of course the other subjects too! We can do it! 4/9 can do it!
For myself, i am going to set this goal for my term two!
Eng = B4
Combined Humanities, Higher Chinese, E Math = A1
Biology, A Math = A2
Chemistry = B3
Hope i can do better! so jia you!

I also gt this news today! I dunno how i am feeling? i think i should say is a mixture of happiness and sadness. This news is only told to KY, RL and MAYPIG! They are all very happy and proud when i told them the results,especially MAYPIG! I feel like i hab make one of their dreams come true. I did not disappoint them! =) We are so happy that we screamed in the canteen! (I think the ppl in the canteen think we SIAO!) At that point of time, i really feel proud of myself! I am so happy! I believe that RL, KY and MAYPIG are so happy that we can't use any words to describe our happiness! We are all crazy! =) I am =)!
However, i did feel a bit sad! I am hoping that it was Audrey or Shoban. They do have more ability than me! They are more firm and serious than i do! They seems to be the "Guai" ppl. I am one of those who are not "Guai". I can't deny that i break almost every of the class rules in class last year! I am someone who can't influence ppl as much as Shoban and Audrey could! I believe I do have some abilities that they might not have, but they are still truely better than me. I am not trying to "pour cold water", i just have this pure feeling that i am not as gd as they do! Sorry if i have disappoint u guyz with my words!
But, i will sure do my best i can! I will be better! Have faith in me!

Plus one funny thing, RL, KY and HL they all siao todae! Starting calling me Yen Mei! and they sing that song (Marry Me Today, By David Tao and Jolin) with lyrics that create they own! Quite funny! =) still remembering they all singing it! =)

Lastly, thankz to MAYPIG, RL & KY! If you are not there for me, i might not have been who i am today! I really touched that i see how haapy you all are when i told u abt it! I felt so blessed to have you all as my friends! I am happy, i feel like crying (Tears Of Joy)!!! Thanz... A million times... a lot of times.... =)

FRIENDSHIP... I WILL ALWAYS TREASURE....
Hi... just came back from eating with RuiLing, Kia Yim and Christina....
Just now, we talk about friendship. Kia Yim was asking me something.

So here's my reply to you: Actually, you dun hab to ask me this question. You are already my friend (Good friend) and you would be one forever as long as i am still alive. To me, there is actually no so called "group friends". I am most happy to accept those who wanna be my friend. I loved to have friends, the more the merry. But of course, i would sure have friends who are closer to me and friends who i dun wanna lose. You, RuiLing, Christina, MayPig and some of the people who i usually talk to all fall into this category. You also say that if i have any problem, tell you! I would! If anyone is there to bully me, tell you! I would! But to say the truth, i hardly have this problem! I can't deny i have no trouble, but i am easily able to get relax cuz i have friends like you all who are always there to hear me nag! So, you are always my friend! =) Always feel free to tell me your problems! I would swear that i would help you in whatever i can! Share all your happiness and trouble with me! I would be always there to support you!

So happy and excited that our class is finally going to have our VERY OWN class T-shirt! It's so cool and nice, furthermore it is also creative. We use the concept of PERIODIC TABLE and a picture of HOMO SAPIENS. (Cuz... our class is BIO class, so draw HOMO SAPIENS is the most suitable!!!) I hope i will not draw until the HOMO SAPIENS until very ugly! (Sorry... if i do!) Anyway, i wish that one day my whole class and our teachers could wear this Polo Shirt together. It would be so cool! and i am sure going to be very touched if this occurs!

Our class seems so different from last year. This year, i feel that my class is like UHU glue. We are together and cannot be separated! I like this feeling! I finally have a feel that i am in class 4/9! =)
Now this is to KY and all my Friends:

Friends For Life Is What We Are!
Through Thick And Thin,
You Are Always My Friend,
Leaning On You, You Gave Me Support,
The Strength To Get Up And Go Again!
If My Heart Was Shattered, You Would Heal It!
If My Heart Was Happy, We Both Rejoiced In It!
You Are My Friend Always And Forever,
It's Been The Best Friendship...
A Friendship That Never End, NOW AND FOREVER!!!