Guilty... Disappointed... Sad... Stressed... Crying....
Todae 4/5/2007, i would definitely remember this day 4ever in my mind. It had been a bad day and unhappy day for me today...
First time in my four years life in school had i ever met with such a case like today! It's the first time we stayed and be united as one. Over here i do not wish to mention what happen... sorry... =(
We had a talk with him today! I felt that he is like someone who we can talk to when we feel sad or troubled. He can understand what we mean and able to use different viewpoints and ways to console/convince us. I felt that he is like someone!
Even though, i couldn't really describe well how i am feeling now, but i knew all these things might have been started because of me! If i haven't start the scolding on Friday, this would not cause her to be sad. Then she wouldn't know why she is sad, and then she wouldn't went to tell her. (Sorry if u dun understand! Juz wanna keep this matter to myself and the blog.)If i haven't been the one who wrote and sent out the names, maybe things wouldn't have turn out so bad today!
I fully understood what he is trying to say today! Maybe it's true ba! We are all both too angry and frustrated at tha point of time. She maybe did not mean to use all the words, maybe she say it without thinking through her mind as she was angry at that point of time. Maybe we are so angry with her that we may have misunderstood what she want to say. Maybe we are all impulsed at that point of time! Think we should have calm down at that point!
I knew what he is trying to drive into our mind. We should not think of the negative side when anything happen or before we do anything. We should try to be understanding to each other. Each and everyone of us is different in our own way of thinking and actions. We have to learn to be tolerance and be understanding to why people would do that. We have to know that we are supposed to be a role-model and set a good example to the rest. We have to know that we must live up to the image of what we are supposed to protray. We all actually knew that we are wrong to do it! We knew that we love being a prefect. We knew that we would not give up the dream and aim to be a good prefect. We knew that we wanted to serve the school to the best of our abilities. We knew that we wanted to help out and be involved with events in school. We knew that we want to be a prefect and would want to remain as one! BECAUSE, WE NEVER TOOK OUT OUR TIE AND WE ARE PROUD TO WEAR IT! aren't i right? if u hadn't want to be a prefect, you would have now already return the tie! We can't lie to ourselves! We love the PREFECTORIAL BOARD! don't you? We had lots of wonderful memories in this board. I sweared that i had never and would never regret in joining the prefectorial board! I have my best times here!
I fully understand why we had this attitude today! First we are people who have our own and unique way of thinking. Maybe we wouldn't feel that we are wrong in the first place. But thinking it now, i find that both parties had wrong. We are lacking of communicationa and understanding.
I also agree that i would not give up my position as a prefect because of a small mistake or scolding. nobody is perfect in this world. We are human beings and we do make mistakes. Who on this Earth do not make mistakes? but it is the matter whether we ae able to learn from our mistake and change!
i am feeeling so stressed just now. On my way home, i was thinking "Do i fit to be a prefect? Do i fit to be a HP? Do i have the qualities to be one? Can i meet the expectations of them? I can do it?
I just wondered. But now, i have straightened out my thoughts. I still have not proven myself whether i could be a good HP. I still have my chance. I must think positively and believe in myself. dun i used to be very self-assured in the past? I should trust myself that i can do it. I must believe i had the ability! If i am not good in something, there would also be someone out there who would help me! So, I must believe in myself. I can do it! I CAN DO IT! I CAN DO IT! JIA YOU!
Haiz.... let this matter pass be... let it be a lesson i have learnt.... let it be part of my memories...
Hahaz... today he was sitting behind me! Wa... he talk so loud, can hear him lor! Haiz... actually wanted to ask him some questions. But no le in the end... before i could ask, he left. Good lor... never mind la.... I can find him anytime one! It's still early! (Actually no la!) Hope i can do well for the subjects test next week.
To U KNOW WHO U R (The one who ask me:"MY, u angry with me ah?"):
Relax, i am not angry with u. I remember your jokes more than the lecture you give me! hahaz... Dunno wat to say to u but a million or even infinity of "THANKS"!!!
PC.... CP..... it's great to have you all! Hardly anyone would sit down and spend their time listening to us! Thanks for being there! I really appreciated it!
当事情还未成为定局时，我们自己不能为它写下残酷的句号，把它判“死刑”。每个人有着不同的性格，我们得学会理解他人，也不忘要学会理解自己。有时心情不好，想找个人聊聊，找个能走进我们心房，了解我们心里在想什么的人。那个了解我的人在那儿，人海茫茫，我何时才能找到你？可能你就在我身旁，但我却不知道…我们都很期盼，在生命中有一个人能打开我们那一颗已被紧紧锁上的心门，但他几时才会拿这那一把钥匙把我那心上的锁给打开呢？
