I AM SUPER DE HAPPI...
YEAH!!! I WILL NEVER 4GET TODAY.... 29/11/2009... The best day of the YEAR 2009... hahaz... never been tt happi for a very long time!!!


hahaz... I LOVE TODAY... went out with my friends... Nana... Mini... RuiLing... and my sis to marina square to eat buffet.. hahaz.. and we had fried ice-cream too... wow... hahaz... Love eating with them... can joke and hab fun...

I LOVE THE PRESENT... IT'S REALLY OMG.. HAHAZ.. i really think i can tear seeing the present.. so mani nice memories (and funni ones...) hahaz... It's a really good photobook.. wow... hahaz... I will keep it till the end of my life... wow.. hahaz... Dunno how to describe... all i can say is THANK YOU CHRISTINA... RUILING... SHARMINI... AND BENJAMIN.. hahaz.. i saw all your msgs.. and yeah... hahaz... Thanks for the present... i think u guys must hab spent a lot.. hahaz... and must hab spent a lot of time completing the book too... wow.. I LOVE IT LOR.. hahaz... I dunno wat to say... BUT I LOVE IT AND YOU GUYS.. is the best way to express...


YEAH.. LOAD SOME PICS I TOOK FROM THE BOOK...





P.S Christina: hahaz... yeah... know tt u didn't know wat to write on the msg but hahaz... our friendship dun need to use words to express one.. hahaz... and yeah... M18 movies.. hahaz... here i come.. but hor... hahaz... i haben even watch a NC16 movie B4 lor.. hahaz... =)

P.S Sharmini: hahaz... sure next time when i gt bf le.. you will be the 1st few to see.. hahaz.. wow... but i think will not happen ba.. i still wanna enjoy my freedom.. hahaz... and yeah... hahaz... you spelled "pretty" wrongly... hahaz.. i still remember your "can i borrow your stomach?"... hahaz... your ang moh veri de good ah...


P.S Benjamin: hahaz... the 1st time i read i thought is you write the msg one.. hahaz... but turn out is ruiling write one.. hahaz... thanks for the help you provided for all the sch and class activites.. i am looking forward for the class bbq on 19 dec too...


P.S RuiLing: Yeah... i am really happi tt i hab you as a friend too... hahaz.. I know my 18th birthday will be different with you guys ard.. hahaz...Thanks for all the thoughts and artwork for the Book.. and yeah.. hahaz... you still know me best!!! hahaz... =)


THANKS TO ALL!!!

YEAH!!! 1 BIO PAPER LEFT!!!!
Yeah... hahaz... super de sian these days...
Rusting at home.. hahaz... cos gt 10 days then bio paper 1... nothing much to study le.. hahaz... JIA YOU AND CHIONG FOR MY LAST PAPER!!!

yeah... though really think the A Level papers this yr is really need "BRAIN" one... but i thinki hab given my best shot.. and i hab no regrets.. hahaz...

wanna load some photos fr alumni dinner but ah... eh... think will take quite a while.. super lazy.. hahaz.. think i will just put them on facebook.. hahaz... =)

YEAH... SUN IS COMING... GT A JOB ON MON!!! HAHAHAZ.... =)

ALUMNI DINNER/CAMPFIRE
Hab lots of fun during the alumni dinner yesterday...
Was super tired after everything ended yesterday...
Three cheers to all the prefects who helped out with the deco... and to Mr Tan who climbed onto chairs to help us take out our deco...
Remember tt we were having tough time trying to do the deco... changin here and there cos of the location and of the weather... but i guessed all of us did our best and yeah.. i think it was great... hahaz...
THANKS TO ALL OF THE PREFECTS... U GUYS ARE THE BEST!!!

come back ard 9.15pm... went to the UG campfire... wasn't really a campfire.. was shifted to the MPH cos it was sort of going to rain... seriously... when i went into the MPH... seeing the performance and such.. i feel like going home le... I was feeling veri uncomfortable with all the sort of yellow jokes being cracked.. i guessed i still cannot take it...
Didn't really stay for the bbq thingy with the NPCC... cos haiz.. i am not from NPCC afterall.. shldn't really eat the food...
so i went to the market and bought bread for my dinner...
Wanted to go for the campfire cos I thought i can shout durin the campfire and really go crazy... but haiz.. was at the back sitting...
I wanna find a time to shout.. i am trappin all my uphappiness in my heart... I WANNA SHOUT...

AH.... WAT'S WRONG WITH ME... HAIZ..

MOOD SWING!!!!
被人利用的感觉很不好受... Trying hard to forget....

dunno why feeling so moody these day... cos of A Level i suppose...
i thought i was strong enough to handle the stress but i guessed i didn't really manage it after all...
I feel so much stressed than i hab after O Level..
i am super worried where i will end up if i didn't make it to a UNI... which is quite a high possibility now after i hab done passsed 3/4 of my papers... haiz...

I hope i am not tt emotional.. i hope my EQ is nt tt high... i hope i will be more positive... i hope i can regain back the real happiness and the true smile i hab...

WOW!!!
Haha... read this from Evina's blog just now.. LAUGH until i feel like crying... hahaz.. so unbelievable.. hahaz...

This is how it goes:
"in the ancient times, there were people who can smile and people who are born not to smile. the ones that can smile get to seduce and reproduce and pass on their favourable trait to the offsprings. hence, only people who know how to smile can have sex. over time, the entire human population is capable of producing facial expressions!"
Sound like evolution.. hahaz... where the more favourable trait were be passed on.... =)

OMG!!! THIS MADE MY DAY!!! HAHAZ... =)

I WAN TO SLEEP!!!
TIRED... with all the sec sch alumni dinner stuff... haiz.. but guessed i didn't really do much cos i super de tired after paper on tue.. just wanna find one day and slp till veri de late... hahaz... yeah... think i am dreaming.. guessed i can only do it after my paper on mon...

Haiz.. lack of time... think gt to chiong for paper 3... haben been really studying.. and still gt chem yet to do.. OMG.. haiz.. gt to do some qns tmr in sch le.. Haiz.. OMG... i need time!!!

JIA YOU... continue... Dun Give Up!!!

I NEED LUCK!!!
Hmmm... gettin abit veri stressed and worried now....
must really get a high score for tmr chem paper... at least a 40 plus out of 60m... if i still wan a C grade... haiz... anything less than tt will be a D and a below grade.. haiz... probability of gettin a C grade is likely to be less than 30%... haiz... dooms to my chem le... ah...

haiz.... sian... REALLY HOPE I AM GOING TO BE VERY LUCKY TMR!!!

JIA YOU!!! IT'S NOT THE END!!!
Had been thinking whether i had really made a wrong choice into JC...
i should hab known veri well tt the O Level results tt i hab gotten was just pure luck...
after all i didn't really work hard for the O Level... and the A Level is an entirely different issue... i hab really overestimated my own abilities... shld hab gone to poly like all my other friends regardless of the $$$, i can definitley study and work concurrently... but haiz... still make the choice to JC so tt i can easily go to UNI and save up $$$... but i am afraid it will become a mistake... mayb i will land myself in JC next year again and waste more $$$... i really dunno how to face my family and friends if i do flunk for the A Level... though it is easy to say tt we can always try again but it really takes lots of courage... hmmm.... the best thing i can do now is not to think abt the results but work hard for the upcoming papers.. jia you... i hope i can do the best and yes... pls do not freak out during the papers... crossing the fingers and pray now tt the worst scenario won't come...

My birthday is sort of coming soon...next month... but haiz.. i really hate the 18th BIRTHDAY!!! everyone might be happy tt they are past 18 and is considered an adult... but for me... 18 years old means no more support for medicine... means money for medicine, uni fees and daily allowance..
i am trying to get a job asap... definitely working in sec sch in the morning and still trying to look for a job in the afternn... might wan to support myself to study in uni... thinking of either stopping to study for a year or study and work at the same time... hmmm... will think abt tt after the A Level... but i hold the belief tt no matter wat... i am going to make sure tt i can get a degree and work... JIA YOU... Life's tough... but IT WILL DEFINITELY MAKE ME A STRONGER PERSON...

Yoga Lim - Shuo Huang

LOVE THIS SING... ESP THE LYRICS...

林宥嘉-說謊

是有过几个不错对象

说起来并不寂寞孤单

可能我浪荡 让人家不安

才会结果都指望

我没有什么阴影魔障

你千万不要放在心上

我又不脆弱 何况那算什么伤

反正爱情不就都这样

我没有说谎 我何必说谎

你懂我的 我对你从来就不会假装

我哪有说谎 请别以为你有多难忘

消失真的不是我逞强

我好久没来这间餐厅

没想到已经换了装潢

角落那窗口 闻的到玫瑰花香

被你一说是有些印象

我没有说谎 我何必说谎

你知道的我缺点之一就是很健忘

我哪有说谎是很感谢今晚的相伴

但我竟然有些不习惯

我没有说谎 我何必说谎

爱一个人没爱到难道就会怎么样

别说我说谎人生已经如此的艰难

有些事情就不要拆穿

我没有说谎 是爱情说谎

它带你来骗我说可我没有可能有希望

我没有说谎 祝你做个幸福的新娘

我的心事请你全遗忘

Time: 1.36am... just done recapping all my statistic...
slp till 6 plus in the evening... hab a super great rest...
guessed my body and mind is ready for tmr paper...
Nothing matter wat it takes... i will just do my best...

REGRET.. being to not calm doing chem paper 3... was super frustrated tt i couldn't do some of the qns.. and i let the emotions run throughout till end of paper.. i guessed this is why i can't solve most of the other qns... i will definitely score a failed grade for chem... BUT this is not the end.. i still have paper 2 and 1.. hope i will do my best and at least get a C for chem... I AM REALLY CROSSING MY FINGERS AND PRAYING HARD THAT I WILL PASS MY CHEM... dun wanna waste all my time and tuition fees for nothing...

JIA YOU FOR TMR PAPER!!! I CAN DO IT!!! I BELIEVE IN MYSELF TT I CAN DO IT!!1 TT'S ALL I NEED: CONFIDENCE!!! JIA YOU!!!

JIA YOU!!!!
At the verge of breaking down... after today's chem paper... i knew very well tt i will definitely fail... did not talk abt chem paper with friends after it ends... afraid tt i might just break down and cry.... really sorry to them... i was super quiet and in a bad mood... was already tearing half way back home on bus.... but i know it's all over once the paper is sumbmitted... crying makes me feel more better...

Gonna K myself if i can't sleep early tonight....

ENCOURAGEMENT TO MYSELF:
Finish all the crying and JIA YOU again... it's only one paper of the chemistry papers... there's still chances... be positive... Jia you... the most impt thing is tt DUN GIVE UP... the result are not out yet.. no one can be sure of wat is gonna happen... FOR NOW... MOST IMPORTANT THING AT HAND IS TO STAY HAPPY AND BELIEVE TT U CAN DO IT!!! YES I CAN!!!

FACED WITH THE TRUE FEELINGS!!!
DOOMZ.... TO MY A LEVEL PAPER FOR MATH P1, GP PAPERS AND BIO PAPER 2...
Never had i felt so not confident after a piece of major exam... i hab so much doubts after i hab done the paper...
i can't be even sure with a qns tt i will definitely be fully correct for math... i practically came up with weird workings....
my gp arguments are so not structured correctly and i think my examples are superficial... AQ was done in such a rush...
for bio... the one tt makes me the most heartbroken... just saw the notes just now... i memorise the process but how could i be so stupid to write the wrong ions for certain parts and i practicallly screwed up the 8 and 4 marks essay... haiz... and wat's more the suggestion qns carries heavy mark weightage...and even some simple qns tt i thought i wrote correctly was actually wrong... OMG.. i seriously dunno y i memorise so mani facts and processes and at the last min, i just screwed up the bio paper 2... WAT'S WRONG WITH ME!!!

HOPES of getting into a UNI just go down each day a paper is done... HOPE I CAN FIND BACK THE MOTIVATION TO BE MORE POSITIVE...
Seriously, after every exam, i kept on finding excuses for myself to not be so pessimistic and be more positive... I really salute to Evina, she always smiling after every paper and looks ahead for the next paper...
I can act to be happy... deep down, my heart just sank to the deepest.... I guessed i just need to face the reality soon... too high a expectation just makes one feel even more depressed...

JIA YOU!!! DUN GIVE UP!!! THIS IS THE BEST ENCOURAGEMENT I CAN GIVE TO MYSELF...

Manage to sleep aroud 5am today.. hahaz.. my body really badly wanted to slp.. but haiz.. hahaz.. my mind keep on recaping on math.. hmmm... i guessed i am really panicking now.. hahaz.. hope i will really stay focused for the math paper later...
JIA YOU....

ALL THE BEST 08S05!!!
18 more hours to MY 1ST A LEVEL PAPER...
and it's math paper 1... seriously i think i am not tt prepared for math.. hahaz... but i am gonna give my best shot and hahaz... fight my way through all the qns.. hahaz... JIA YOU...

wasn't sleeping well these days... dreaming abt all the bio stuff tt i hab memo... hahaz... can't even believe it...i can still memo them in my dream.. but haiz.. but i knew some were wrong.. hahaz... so got to wake up and start recapping...

still gt the eukaryotic part to memo... JIA YOU...

GOOD LUCK TO ALL ESP 08S05 FOR THE UPCOMING A LEVEL PAPERS... WE CAN DO IT AS A CLASS!!! JIA YOU!!!

p.s OMG I am still not panicking for the exam.. hahaz... hope i won't freak out during the papers... JIAYOU AND CHIONG AH!!!

品冠-大富翁
so funni and so cute... hahaz... =)