AH... How can say i "名誉扫地"...
Hi. One more day to the ending of my prelims.
Today feel veri moody because i think i gt rejected for DSA. of course la, i must have really think too highly of myself! (this is wat KY always say..)
actually today at the canteen, i was with KY, Nana and RL. i had already wanted to cry. But i told myself i cannot cry. So i try to lay down on the table. I was closing my eyes but tears had actually been formed. I wiped it away using my jacket. (Luckily KY, Nana and RL never see!) then Huiling came to tap on my shoulder. I did not wake up at first cuz still crying. But when she speak into my ears, i hab to wake up le. I looked up, use my hands to rub my eyes.... hahaz... fortunately, they did not feel or know that i had cried....
DSA... i hab really hope i could get in.... but days after days, no news! Think i am kanna rejected. Of course la... poor results... poor leadership abilities.. poor.... bad... stupid....
Haiz... which sch would actually wanna ppl like me... so lack of abilities. no motive in life. no objective in life. Dun even know wat i wan. I see RL and Nana and KY deciding on wat they wanna do, but me, all i could do was to stay silent. I have no opinions. I do not know what i want. What i wanna do in the future, to be exact! Haiz... I dunno... i just feel i have no talents and abilities, even no interest. What am i doing? I feel so hopeless and useless. I think i will fail my prelims. I think i will flunked all my subjects. I think i do badly, seriously... I hab really try my very best. Nothing seems to be very good. I am really worthless, aren't I? So shameless of me to be so thick-skinned to apply for DSA. sometimes, i just feel i do not know my own limits....

All these while, it had been only PC who knows i am sad. He told me he hardly see me smile nowadays, he ask me abt my problems (of course i say nothing), he try to help me! He try his best to joke around. Thanks a lot. It feel so much better with his jokes. His ERIC, his LUO HUA LIU SHUI. Haha... it's so funni.... He is so different from other teachers. He seems like a father to me... Just like Mr Png... Advice, encouragement, jokes that all i want now... I am really lacking of it... because i am getting more and more depressed abt my prelims and disappointments in my performance.
I told myself to work hard, but i know i really had not try hard enough, i can push myself to do better. My bio paper on thur was bad. i knew how to do paper one. it was easy, i bet our bio cher just wanna help pull up our grades. Then when it came to paper two. I knew the paper was easy, But i can't answer the questions. To face the reality, to state the fact, i did not study hard enough, right? Hahaz... That's me... who ask me to not forcus studies... who tell me to play during sec 3. Now i regretted.... I dunno y... ppl say academic aren't important... but reality have proved otherwise. Academic is always the priority factor. haiz... results i have, hahaz... think can only get to myself to ITE...

Haha... gt mr leong recording today! FUNNY sia... He can't even remember his kou tou chan "Your O Level is coming!!!" Haha... still need our reminder... But anyway, feel so great tat least finish his recording. Haiz... kanna sour by him, i told him that i would use my reputation to ensure his recording would be safe. Then he say i where gt reputation, my reputation already 名誉扫地.... dunno wat he mean by that, maybe he say it just for fun. But rolling feel otherwise, she told me abt the junior incident, think it might be one of the reasons...

Haiz... this few days i become MUMMY... to rolling and Nana and KY. haiz... i younger than them lor... But anyway, it's funny but i still think this kind of joke can't be play too far. I do not want another misunderstanding between me and HIM (you guys should know who!) or even the other. One had been enough! I still can stand it now... But in the future, i might get irritated. I had already learnt to be like him, trying to ignore..... anyway, it's ok! It's just a rumour.... nothing said will actually happen in reality. Use your brain... or even your **tt..... u will definitely know we are impossible. You think this kind of love will happen. NEVER... AND IMPOSSIBLE.... this is not a fairy tale. Get down to Earth, it would never happen and i think it had never happen before... so stop daydreaming that we might be together... my dear "DAUGHTERS"...
haiz... feeling very^1000 down these days... is there any sale of medicine that can make me happy or even help me get out of these situation... Tons and Tons of things... Millions and Millions of unhappiness... Thousands ad thousands of worries.. Hundreds and hundreds of disencouragement and rejection.... I just wanna be FREE... AND HAPPY... and one day, i hope to find my aim of life.... For now, i would just wanna forcus on my studies.... =)

Lyrics for Kit Chan's National Song.... it's chinese version!!!
Heard this song from Y.E.S 93.3... it's the chinese version of the national song kit chan sang. Hahaz... this was done by zhou chong qing.... a bit funni the lyrics... and it's sang by Jiahui and him! I have the recorded version in my hp... Hope can load it from somewhere.... Haha... Love the lyrics lots.... Very funny and creative...

你说要去PARIS 我听成PASIR RIS
长城有魅力 也很吃力
要爬上铁塔 非常EXPENSIVE
其实SENTOSA 会更便宜
这是美丽的天地 我的家就在这里
去到外地 我才发现
原来这里最干净
这里也有PULAU UBIN 要骑脚车也可以
你要很小心 别像周崇庆
不然少了四颗TEETH
这是美丽的天地 我的家就在这里
从JURONG EAST 到 PASIR RIS
TAXI BUS 和 MRT
这是美食的天地 有很多好吃东西
LAKSA CHAR KWAY TEOW 和那 LOR MEE
不满意有云吞MEE
还有SATAY 和福建MEE…

Ah... PRELIMS.... A FEW MORE DAYS TO GO...
Hi. Just happen to have a bit of time to blog.
Just finished my GEO, CHEM, AMATH P1 AND ENG P1 last two days.
Eveything run quite smoothly, but i can't really assure a pass for my chem.
Haiz... hope these few days, the prelims paper can be easy... (wait long long.)
Dunno whether can do well nt... very afraid i would not be able to...
Think my application for DSA to CJC is rejected. after all, these renowned school wouldn't want a student like me ba... haiz... come back to reality... dun think too highly of yourself....
tomoro emath paper 1.... then bio and emath paper2... then SS... hope everything run smoothly for me.... really.... all i can do now is to study hard and of course pray hard....
GOOD LUCK TO MAYPIG AND 4/9 SIANS....
i really had a fun and memorable time on Racial Harmony Day. it's my first time in my sec sch life that i wear an ethnic clothes. Think it looks funni ba... hahaz. It really took me a lot of courage to dress in that way to go up the platform to say the plegde. Thankz God, nothing embarrassed happen. BTW wanna thank farhanah for lending me her clothes... =) During that day, i also took some photos with friends, teachers. (especailly ms filzah... miss her lots!!!)
also had a class photo together with our bio cher, mr leong... hahaz... will never forget the fun we had when we sabotage him. It's funni indeed... hahaz.... think he already know beforehand what we up to le ba...Anyway, thanks him a lot for spending time with us to take the photo... luckily he never charge us like Mr Tan. (Took one photo with him... can't forget how hard it is to take photo with him...)
On sun, gt a new hp... number never change as usual... it's ********.... hahaz.... it's easy to guess if u can get his no... and change a few number.... wanna change initially... cuz dun feel gd to have the same no as him. But haiz.... BUDGET.... BUDGET.... (that's what mr cheong like to say...)

Last i wish all 4/9 sians good luck and all the best for their prelims! LET'S JIA YOU! WE CAN DO IT!!!! GO... GO ...GO... =)

Should i go? I WILL GO CLASS CHALET!
Sian, had a hard time deciding whether wanna go for class chalet. I had two choices. One is to go oversea and is to go for class chalet.
After much consideration, i think i will go for the class chalet. After all this would be the last time i will be together with my secondary school friends, especially 4/9, whereas going oversea, other time also can go. So my final decision is to go for class chalet. Hope everything would be fun! =)
Sat at mac today with Jane, Rolling, KY and Nana. We (Me, rolling and jane) are all happily toking abt our sec one life. Hahaz... really missed it. At that point of time, there is so many happiness and freedom. I can say almost everyday i was laughing. I really missed those days. It was the year where i learns lots of different things, things that i never heard of in my primary sch life, things i never did before in my primary sch life. I can say is a country bumpkin, hahaz... very suan gu (knows practically nothing.) I learns lots of stuffs from rolling and other people. Hahaz... i am indeed surprised of the things they knew. =)
Sian. will end here today. gt to do bio and finish up my amaths. =)

Class chalet.... when? where? haiz... feel....
Hi. Lots of days haben blog le. have been very busy this few days lor. Gt a lot of hw.
our form teacher asked us abt how our days getting by. she asked whether we are prepared for our Prelims. all i can say i am not very prepared. Everyday after sch, the first thing to do is homework. Homework are more than before. I have tons of MT hw.(It is good news for those who are not studying HMT.) In addition, there's lots of revision that all of us need to do. I am really tired. But i knew it very well that after all these hardships, i would be able to relax. Jia You ba... Xiao Pig and all of my friends. Let's get over this.... Let's work hard together!!! =)

So touched. HuiLing waited for me to finish my HMT lesson just to give me three cupcakes she made it specially for me. It's sugar free. Feel very happy to receive it. I really appreciated it a lot. Hahaz. Thank You huiling. =)

Haha. today my class kanna caught. We are acting like smart alex. We (excluding me and some other people) all do the questions in front and did not do the questions at the back for bio. In the end, my cher start going through from the back. Feel so funni when i saw how our class react. Haha.. my bio cher not so stupid after all... quite smart ah! really know wat we would do!

Our class going to organize another event. Class chalet at the end of the year. Placing a low expectation for it. I really hope the whole class could make it this time. I hope we would at least have a most unforgetable event before we leave for our own roads. I am getting some trouble though, i had initially wanted to give up, but i will not. I wanna make it memorable, or at least fun. I wanna do it! No matter wat obstacles, i promised i won't give up easily. =) Haiz... wanna decide the date today... but haiz... thinking it to be between 4-7 Dec. Haha... hope it will most probably be from 4 - 6 dec. Haha... so near my BDay. All my BDay plans gone into thin air le. But i think i will still go on with the Bday BBQ, if possible a 3D2N stay in sch, at the end of November. Hope everything would go well and smooth for the Class Chalet. It's during my BDay, i really do not hope that any sad events would happen. (I might be selfish by saying it, but i really hope it would be happy.... the simplest thing i wanna get for my Bday is just smiles from everyone. It's very important to feel happy! Veri Important!)

Another big event is going to come out soon. It's Teachers' Day! toking abt it, gonna get a big headache... wat can we do this year? After all this is my last year, i hope to make it fun and memorable. Is my class going to perform? Wat are we going to buy? i wondered.

Today, my eng cher asked abt the events that prefects hold for pupils' welfare. I was like: Do we have? for so long since i am in Prefectorial Board, we dun seem to have anything related to pupils' welfare. The most we do was just survey. Think it's high time we should put our mind together to think of something. I want to bring out the best of PREFECTORIAL BOARD.

Sianz.... Come home, feeling quite sad. I feel that i am quite powerless. I am quite useless. I can't seem to do anything right. I feel that i am still not the right person for the position. I dun seem to have the way of carrying the attitude the position should have. Haiz... furthermore, all of the sudden, my results drop drastically. see my sec1 results and my current results. It is really a tremendous drop. What had happen to me? I have changed a lot. Dun i? Did i change for the better or for the worst. How can i fulfil my teachers' expectations of me? Am i doing well so far? Am i really suitable for the job? You might think that i am having a low self esteem, but i seriously have not a single clue what has gone wrong. Maybe i am a perfectionist, someone who wanna do things perfectly. Maybe.... Maybe.... haiz....

jin.tian.xin.qing.hen.bu.hao.wo.bu.zhi.dao.wei.shen.me.zhi.shi.mo.ming.de.gan.dao.shan.xin
wo.yi.wei.wo.kan.jian.ni.hou.xin.qing.hui.gen.hao.dan.qi.shi.yi.dian.dou.mei.you.fan.er.ken.shan.xin
gai.shi.wang.le.ni.de.shi.hou.wo.xiang.geng.ni.shuo.dan.wo.zhi.dao.wo.men.shi.bu.ke.neng.de
dan.jin.tian.wo.fa.xian.wo.men.bu.shi.he.bi.chi
wo.he.ni.de.bu.tong.shi.na.me.de.da.wo.he.ni.de.ju.li.shi.na.me.de.yao.yuan
fang.qi.neng.zhe.me.rong.yi.shuo.jiu.hao
xin.zhong.de.na.yi.ge.kong.wei.you.shui.neng.liao.jie.you.shui.neng.bang.wo.bu.shang
fan.ah.wei.xue.ye.er.fan.wei.ban.shang.de.shi.er.fan.wei.peng.you.jian.de.shi.er.fan.

Haiz... got to go le. May not blog so often now. Unless i am feeling down.... or extremely happi...

CRY ON MY SHOULDER
CRY ON MY SHOULDER
(Deutsch. Sucht Den Super.)
If the hero never comes to you
If you need someone you're feeling blue
If you're away from love and you're alone
If you call your friends and nobody's home

You can run away but you can't hide
Through a storm and through a lonely night
Then I show you there's a destiny
The best things in life
They're free

But if you wanna cry
Cry on my shoulder
If you need someone who cares for you
If you're feeling sad your heart gets colder
Yes I show you what real love can do

If your sky is grey oh let me know
There's a place in heaven where we'll go
If heaven is a million years away
Oh just call me and I make your day
When the nights are getting cold and blue
When the days are getting hard for you
I will always stay here by your side
I promise you I'll never hide

But if you wanna cry
Cry on my shoulder
If you need someone who cares for you
If you're feeling sad your heart gets colder
Yes I show you what real love can do

But if you wanna cry
Cry on my shoulder
If you need someone who cares for you
If you're feeling sad your heart gets colder
Yes I show you what real love can do

What real love can do
What love can do
What real love can do
What love can do
What real love can do
What love can do

ah... prelim is coming soon!! VERI SOON!!!!
Oh no, prelim going to come in two weeks time. Still gt lots of things gonna catch up. No only di we have to do homework, go to school plus revision, i hardly has time for anything! AH... I am going to go crazy soon! very tired... really tired...
Sian, still coughing but haha... better now.
Now searching the web for some research on drink driving. haiz... sian...
later still gt a mountain of amath hw need to do...
IT'S FOR YOUR OWN GOOD!!! DO IT!!!

Sian.... never hear from you many days le... how are you? Hope everything is fine for you!
O level coming soon le! We must all jia you and get into the desired school we wanna go to!!!

Haha.... btw got one veri pian tai de joke from Rolling (if course from her la, still gt who as porno as her!).
Q: What horoscope do Sagittarius need to hold it up?
A: Libra.... (hahaz... too porno le... dun wanna say the reason out here!)(eh... sorry if i offend the Sagittarius and Libra people... i am a sagittarius too!)
This joke was actually created at mac when we are doing amath together. We will talking abt saggitarius and libra and *****, then have this stupid joke coming out all thanks to our 狗头!

and one more thing... these days, Weiyang and rolling had a latest 口头禅. One of them would keep on saying "LOL" which sounds like "LL". another would keep saying "HAHA". oh no wat on earth happen to them? I think is uniqueness ba!!!! Think i should have my one own too!

Haiz... dun blog le... gonna burn midnight oil! Haha... gonna miss you..... especially you..... =)