NAGGIN!!!! NAGGIN!!!!
TIRED!!! SOS!!! I AM REALLY TIRED!!!
Not just over revision, but also all the daily stuff tt need to be done...
Morning to take attendence... collect stuff for ppl not in sch..
doing it once or weekly is okie... but i hab been doing it for past 2 weeks... i am really tired... hahaz.. hope i can go back to the "free" person, dun need to do anything...
haiz... i dunno how to describe this feeling i hab... jealousy... guilt... disappointment... or coward... seeing some of my friends not coming to sch... i am jealous... how i hope i can wake up late and study according to my own schedule.. how i wish i can plan study time my own and take enough rest.. i am really tired of waking up early.. going to sch.. then staying in sch studing and going back home to study again.... everyday with onli 4 to 5 hrs of slp.. sorry yeah.. i am sort of nagging and complaining here...COWARD: haiz... i don't dare to skip sch.. i mean it's not part of my principles... i just feel the sense of guilt skipping sch... haiz..
hmm...last friday was a really bad day... there was problems with prom money as my tutor didn't pick up any of the calls... we needed to confirm things with her and to get the $$$ to pay for the prom tickets cos fri was the date to pay all the remaining money... but haiz... i at least gave her 7 missed calls... and she didn't reply a single one... i don't know how mani calls my class rep gave.. and my class rep was so pek chek (dunno how to spell, but it means annoyed)... tt she gave up and sat, and cry a while... it was friday and all of us was tired and hungry (no time to eat... with only half an hr and all JC2 having same break...)... then my bio cher and i (was having consultation then) just told my class rep to go home and i'll settle it.. and yeah.. haiz.. gt to settle all the money and stuff.. i gave up and just told e person-in-charge tt the best i cld do was to just settle all the stuff with them on mon cos i can't do anything w/o my tutor's conformation...
was just really annoyed and angry by the acions of my tutor at tt point of time... haiz..
when i finished settling the prom stuff, i was really calm le.. until this person from some other class really come and pissed me off... This person told me "Can you stop looking for bio cher for consultation? Everytime you look for him for consultation, i can't do my consultation. Don't everytime find him..."
It's really irritating... my mood just become bad again.. but he was really lucky... cos my bio cher was there when he said tt sentence... i didn't really scold him.. and just say goodbye and walked away to find my friends... haiz... was so angry.. almost burSt into tears...
oh yeah.. and he also said this to me when my bio cher wasn't ard: "How did you do for ur bio... (i reply 'badly')", "wow... you are the person who always look for bio cher for consultation and still fail ur papers..."...
Okie... honestly.. i am guilty tt i still fail my papers after so much consultation... but i can't help but was seriously hurt by his words.. i am really sorry towards my bio cher le.. and this person make me feel even worse... (and the point is tt he who always look for consultation, also fail... wat right does he hab to comment on me???)
haiz.. some of my friends who met me and heard wat i told them said tt i should hab scold him bk.. some even ask me to give him a tight slap and tt i shldn't walk away like tt... hahaz... i just dun wanna make things so complicated... i know i will be angry and nagging it to friends and blog it... but hahaz.. i won't stay angry for long... hahaz.. at least i become super happy on friday night with a good sleep!!! =)
hahaz... and yeah.. i am so happy to see RuiLing on thur...become so energised when i saw her cos was really tired tt day too... hahaz.. thanks for helping my sis with maths...
P.S. Listening to "Live" singin by PING GUAN... hahaz... super nice!!!
