NAFA... bad... MOOD... bad
Haiz... todae NAFA was terrible sia! First dunno wat happen to me today, can't jump for my SBJ. Usually i jump around 160cm plus, (if i not wrong, last year was 167cm) but today i only jump at 147cm. Wa siao... a difference of 20cm! Then for shuttle run, worst ah... i almost fall down twice. This time, the SR was at hall which was quite a slippery place. Who tell me so stubborn dun wan to take off shoes! Make me run at a time of 12.5s... so different from last time where i used to run from 10 to 11 secs! Ahahahah.... wat's happening to me.... Bt, one gd thing is my sit & reach! Hahaz... I reach till 41cm... 14cm more from last year... that's cool! Todae everything went in a REVERSE manner, all those stations which i thought i would do well turns to the stations i did the worst! Haiz... bt anyway, i did my best le... =)

Todae, haiz... feel so bad mood! It's maybe i am thinking too much that make me so sad or maybe i am setting a high expectation for myself...
I felt worse than before. If i knew that all this would happen, i would never want to be one! Maybe it's because i feel so stressed ba... so i'm moody!
RuiLing says this few days, i do not smile as much as usual! I actually know it myself... I can feel myself getting more and more depressed because of the load and the expectations i set for myself for ba...
Try veri hard for some subjects le... but dunno y i am still getting so low marks... Plus all the loads that i am carrying... I hope i can throw them all away from me and take a deep breathe and move on! If one day i can't take it anymore, i am afraid i would cry! I am really trying very hard to meet the expectations! I am really trying my best to change! But that's who i am! Haiz... dunno y i can't cry now, usually i would... maybe, i am trying to act strong in front of everyone ba! After all, i have went through so many bad things and obstacles in my life for the past 15 years! I am trained to be strong and brave to face everything in my way!
I am sorry if i am a bit of attitude to any of my friends. I am sorry if i have affected your mood too! I can't really smile! But i will get back to the old me one day! Believe me! Sorry to make u all suffer with me all these days! Thanks for always being there for me! =)

A SMILE IS A CURVE THAT SETS THINGS STRAIGHT!
OF EVERYTHING YOU WEAR, YOUR SMILE IS THE MOST IMPORTANT!
A SMILE CAN BRIGHTEN THE DARKEST DAYS!
So to all my dear friends, i will sure find my smile back! (the fake smile which RL and NANA say i have) I believe that you are the ones who are capable of bringing it back for me! =)